Anti-slump Serum

I have started back into a slump and I don’t want to go down this road again. Today I feel full of optimism at my ability to effect positive change in my life to counter the negative things that I am unable to change. I can’t fix our debt. I can’t get John a job. I can’t move out. It’s become an awful obsession with me at times. I feel like in the back of my mind I’m always creating new ways to work from home or thinking about what hours I could work or would it ever be enough to make a difference or could it possibly be worth the amount of energy and time away from my family it would require. The feelings these thoughts tend to create are not positive. Furthermore, for the most part, nothing I come up with seems to equal a realistic solution, at least not at present. So I need to set aside that worry basket and focus on the things I do have control over in my life and work at becoming who Heavenly Father wants me to be. I can prepare for the future as best I can. Then I have to decide to live in today as best I can. So that I’m on the path I should be on, becoming the person I want to be, today.

What to do with my days:

1.       Achieve spiritual goals

a.       Read Book of Mormon daily (English and Spanish) finish by Aug 1^st

b.      Write in Journal

c.       Memorize Scriptures

d.      Read Ensign

2.       Exercise

3.       Plan the Day

a.       Katie Activities

b.      Ben Activities

c.       John Activities

d.      My Activities

e.      Chores

f.        Lunch/Dinner

g.       Work for mom

h.      Mom Activities

4.       Write/Research

a.       Community School

b.      Mom and Marriage

c.       Songs

d.      Children’s Lit

e.      Young Adult Lit

                                                               i.      Seangull

1.        Marion G. Romney, “The Celestial Nature of Self-Reliance,” Ensign, Mar 2009, 61–65

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f.        Adoption/Foster Care

5.       Plan/Create/Projects

a.       Katelyn’s Comforter

b.      Paint Color/Home Decor Schemes

c.       Money Saving Meal Planning and Recipe Collections

d.      Finish Quiet Book

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Today the Bishop talked about the need to stop judging our progress by our lists and let our conversion be our motivation and our form of measurement. I'm still making lists, which is good, it's a plan, but I also know I need to focus on the big picture- why I'm trying to do these things, why it's important, how am I trying to live God's plan for me and are these things helping me get there. This week I want to try to go to bed early and get up early and use the hours before my children are up to accomplish some of the "best" things so that they don't get left out of my days. I want to go to bed at 8:00 and get up at 4:00am. Ambitious, but I think I could adapt and get used to it. I could read my scriptures, exercise, write...The idea of such freedom to accomplish these things makes my heart leap with joy. We'll give it a try!